December 8th, 2003


Deleting things.

A few memories, a few logs AIM automatically kept, a few people from my friends list. It's as close as I get to self-destructive, at least.

After the week of not-working and the week of illness, I feel lazy. I need to remedy this and do other things, because it's causing me to not care about things. Right now I just feel like I have an absence of emotion. I want to sever ties with some people that've been pretty poor for quite a while, we either never talk or conversation seems like it's automatically dying as soon as it begins. LJwise, there are some people who I added and have found what they talk of, to be things I can't relate in. It's not meant to be taken personally when I take them from the friends list, but given those people don't talk to me much anyway, I doubt they'll mind much.

As for my life... when the most exciting thing that happens in the weekend is the pizza company send a pizza with puree on it, and you're allergic to tomatoes so have to make yourself something else to eat, you know it's a quiet weekend. I'm waiting for someone to try to contact me, given I can't contact them. Their lack of contact is annoying the hell out of me. I was pleased that Leicester got a point out of Arsenal. I realised I was beginning to forget who people are on livejournal and AIM these days.

I need to pay more attention to things again.

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Point to contemplate on, to self:

I befriend too many people and as a result lose contact with too many of these people. I don't feel a part of people's lives as intricately as I used to, due to spreading myself out too much, and when I feel I shouldn't talk to some people (as I don't think they'd like to chat to me at the time) it makes the gulf larger. In the end, people I used to be really good friends with disappear, and sometimes I feel glad for it, because it stops me from having to try to begin uncomfortable checking up on what's happened in their world since the last time we spoke, and all that.