May 4th, 2004


Work quirk.

Monday was the first evening I was meant to go back to work. I arrived at 5 to get some time around Simon, to gain a little extra confidence as well about the place. The manager had seemed to organise things badly, as Tom arrived thinking he was working at 6 PM. End result: confusion, and the manager quickly arranging for us to go about and do respective jobs, both of us worked quite hard on random things for the evening - me on moving items around again (I seem to be the best person at finding space in that shop) whilst Tom changed second-hand prices of items. I picked the more difficult job and was glad to have something to occupy my mind, but I finished what I had to do at about quarter to 9, and anything else I could do would have meant getting in the way of Tom.

By 9 o'clock I was looking outside, seeing how dark it was, and feeling paranoid. As time grew on, my stomach began to churn, and I had to get out of the shop somehow, for a walk, to get food, to get home. I asked Tom if I could head off and leave him to run the fort for the last hour and he had no problems with that.

I picked up a few DVDs, one for Cliff, before I went.

The robbery hadn't affected me too much at all, until then. Hearing so many people say I was brave when I didn't feel like that, feeling there's a fourth person who hasn't been caught, having so many people show an interest in this that the story turned from a strange evening to a novelty story to something I can't be bothered going over again and again...

I don't feel myself at the moment. I asked to end things with Shaz as a result. It was a temporary split I asked for a few weeks ago, but with the other things building up... I'm not really feeling like I'm able to look after me right now, so I don't feel I have a chance looking after her. She's a nice lass, and we've had fun together, but I just don't feel right about me and her, my mind's not comfortable with that right now. To be honest, saying this probably quelled some of the tenseness that was in the relationship, and allowed both of us to talk like we used to, something we've not had a chance to do for a while - the tenseness and the temporary split kept becoming talking points when we did get a chance to chat.

Weather's going to be crap all week. I might head to the cinema, that'd be my travelling limit - the weather puts me off trying to go into London about that t-shirt. I guess I'm also feeling excessively lazy. The week off has allowed me to laze a bit too much.

And I'm slowly getting through Mario 3, trying to complete every level. I remember completing this game as a kid, when it came out... and now I'm struggling in Sky World, with a nasty lava-filled castle and another nasty level that'll involve jumping onto the backs of moving enemies to get through the level. I do aim to complete everything there is to complete, and I've been going well through things, but now it's really getting challenging. I've also collected music boxes and P-wings and can't even remember what they did.

Oh, and I got so annoyed with the Sky World castle of lava that I began trying to use items I'd collected... including the bad idea of attempting that level in a frog suit. I didn't even manage to make the first jump.
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