Ach, it's not that bad, really. It's money, at least. And doing the twelve hours won't be that bad - it's just knowing it's coming up when I can't be bothered, frankly.
So, what else to think of? Hm, besides the soul-searching we all do around this age?
- Mum's hankering for sorting out the Christmas decorations. It's taking its toll when I've been coming back from work - mainly because Cliff hates Christmas so they keep bickering over his grumbling over the 'stupid time'. Also, Mum always has to scavenge which is causing us to have a lack of space for anything. My bedroom is a temporary wreck due to the presents all being harvested in my room for now, alongside the computer Cliff acquired that is, frankly, crap. So we're keeping a poor computer for no reason. Huzzah! It'll be gone by the year's end, I expect.
- The feeling of singleness is kicking in a little, that'll pass. It's been on my mind more recently due to hearing other people in similar situations - that makes you think of it more, consciously or not. Otherwise I'm comfortable with letting life pass until someone nice shines out, as it were.
- There's this massive feeling that I lost some of my schoolfriends too easily and the need to say hello to them again is remarkably vivid today.
- I want to make a music CD so I have something half-decent to listen to when I get into work but keep forgetting to do such a thing.
I need to write more - actually, I need to remember what I say more so I can write it. Methinks I'll be looking for a simple and carryable dictaphone of some format soon. Say, when I walked down the shops yesterday I ended up thinking of a daffy chorus, which someone was amused at. I know I could write some decent stuff in this frame of mind, it's getting the time to... which is why recording it so when I do have more time, I can get it written, is key.
Oh, and I bought a second-hand Dreamcast (after the other one went kaput) for a fiver today at work, with Shenmue and some crap game. Shame my friend has most of my games now. I'll have to see if I can acquire any back.