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Merry Christmas!
I am remarkably well for what is going on around me. Karma handed me a few presents I deserved this season and I've eventually taken them with a smile on my face. Fate is fate. Things happen for a reason. But now I have less reasons to stop any potential exploration of who I am. Of course, one could look at this and ask why I gave myself reasons to stop. I've no answer. It was stupid of me. But things happen for a reason.

My 'best' present is to be self-bought: I am going to go back and visit my family in the middle of March or early April and pick up presents from them there, and likewise come over to England with a suitcase full of treats for them. This coincides with a vicious recurring dream where I would get hit by a car as I walk to buy my Nan cigarettes on my 24th birthday. Do I want to tempt fate? I kind of do. March is the better time to go, but I really do want to show my psyche I'm not scared of its phenomenal powers of premonition. But the flip side is that it's easier to organise a birthday party in your own continent, if such a thing will occur.

I also have a festive story: three days ago, I took a less normal route from work to home. Along the route I found $20 on the ground. Typically, money calls you and wants you to pick it up, especially at this time of year, where it wants to go and visit $20 friends in a cash register somewhere. But I felt sick picking the money up. I didn't feel excited with this find. I didn't really want it at all. But money is money and my mind eventually told me to shush and go. I could use this money and buy a better present. Treat someone with it. Give it to charity. Use it wisely.

As I came home I found a message about a friend who'd gone to a party and had $10 stolen and another friend who had a Nintendo DS (value: $130) stolen. Fortunately, the DS was returned but the money has not been. My mind, in terms of how it believes fate works, demands I hand the person who lost the $10, the $20. For the shake-up that being stolen from causes. If this isn't a good plan, and the person will not take it, I'll donate it to an animal sanctuary we're set to take one of our cats to. We can't handle him and his peeing issues. We don't enjoy having to smell our clothes every time we pick something up. And if you're after an angle on the situation: if karma is indeed after me this season, I may as well try and deflect it away with good intentions for a little while.

I received a stupendous Christopher Walken t-shirt and a lovely ragged-looking pinstriped jacket. I'd set all my hopes on finding or getting a beautiful hoodie with pinstripes and a fleur-de-lis on it. It really made me happy. But it was not meant to be. Yet this jacket has more personality to it anyway. I must use it well. I received a miniature William Shakespeare with a charming comic inside it. I received more Chargrilled Steak McCoy's from England. I received a nice fluffy cap that has headphones built into it - if we had working music players lying around, I'd be really excited by this. Instead, I'm just going to have to buy a new music player. I received many forms of candies. I received a Nintendo DS Lite holder in the hope that I'd never use a glove for my console's protection (though alas the glove will remain, for I do not have a DS Lite). I have a Starbucks gift card which I may have misplaced already. I'm terrible with gift cards. I live around too much paper and scribbles and scrawls. And it can just get mixed with these little scraps of paper and pushed into a box of words and put away for future reference.

My favourite presents that I received for this year are the beautiful cards and calls and text messages from people wishing me a Merry Christmas. I really appreciate this more than anything: any other present, any explanation I could offer to show my happiness, anything. I miss my family like crazy and I had initially intended to go back and visit and be there today, but a lack of time and money (alongside the joys of work commitments) snuck up on that idea and engulfed it for later review. So to have extra interaction with people at this time of year lifts me a little more.

For every call on the cellphone or text message you left ( 253-468-1470 ) or letter that you sent, or email or MySpace message I received - or even LJ comments I may receive for this post, or even just reading up to this far: Thank you all. I can't explain how much I love you for it.

I'm going to get washed and presentable and tidy up a little and try to go for a drink or a bite to eat somewhere. I feel creative. I am going to make badges/buttons for people. I have been told where the machine to make this is. I also had a great idea for a self-analysis book, which involves very little writing on my part, but a hell of a load of research. I will continue to work on this until something else comes along.

Have a great day, people. And a great 2007. I intend to! I typically enjoy odd-numbered years. Another exact opposite that caused fate to intervene.

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YAY Dean! Sounds like you're having/had a great Xmas!!!! And I'm so glad you're able to get home to England in 07, too! HOORAY!

I'm getting a new cell phone soon, and once it's all set, you and Jamie can have my digits and we can harass each other via text messages whenever :D

Enjoy your night!

I'm really looking forwards to seeing family. I was all tearful when I saw Nan had written her Xmas card herself; she normally gets Mum or Bill to write it for her.

awww that's even better!

Again, I'm really excited for your trip! <3


Merry Christmas, and happy badge-making! I need to get a badge-maker (and a printer), so that I can adorn myself with stupid images and slogans from Digi.

The DigiBadges idea sounds excellent. I love it when a plan comes together!

Merry Christmas Dean! I'm glad it was a good one. I hope you get to go home soon. : )

Thank you. I had a nice time, really. I feel like it's not right to say home about England, though. I've settled well here. England is my past, and my wonderful family, but I feel at home here.

I feel equally at home in Colorado (after 10 years), but New England will always be my home. Though maybe a little less so now that most of my family is in California.

That sounds like tempting fate to me bro, but would be cool to see you again..........as long as that hair is cut!

The mayor has spoken

That hair is getting longer and longer as we speak. I can't talk for eating a mouthful of it. I can't cut it now either, not until I get to the UK. I want to hear the amused reactions!

I'll make sure to bother the heck out of you when I get back. I would love it if the mayor took photos of how the Games Station now looks.

everything gets better in time
if this christmas was good, wait till next year

wish you all the best
your friend,

I'm really excited to see where life takes me. Thank you for your kind words.

Sorry I couldn't find your pinstripe hoodie in time :( They only had small when I went to look...

Sorry I got cut off the phone from you just now. I will see you tomorrow though and we will make some fun plans<3

That's fine, you. I understand. I'll just keep an eye out in other places.

My phone was losing money fast from the conversation anyway. You'll see me tomorrow, yeah, and we'll organise something together eventually.

Oh my gosh! I had a vivid dream about you and your Nan this morning before I woke up, and I don't even know you or your Nan! You were sitting facing each other in front of a window with lace curtains with the sun streaming in from the outside, so from my vantage both of you were in silhouette. She said "Do you see now, my boy, that red consumes all green? Trust yourself. Even a trophy or souvenir deserves a bit of dusting off and a good polish from time to time. Live!"

Can't even fathom a guess about the meaning. I'm blaming it on the previous evening's merlot on top of reading your entry.

Wish you all the best for the holidays and the new year!


Thanks for letting me know. It's an interesting dream, to be sure. I like the quote you remembered.

You have a good time too!

Are you receiving my text messages? I believe I've sent a total of 3 now.

Off the top of my head, I've gotten three messages from three different numbers and I don't know who they are, but I assume one of those must be yours.

Great and inspiring post. Its kinda late to wish you Merry Christmas, so just wanna ask how was that self analysis book going? I am interested. More power!


I saw it as I was packing things away. Life became monotonous for a little while, and with it I lost the desire for self-analysis. Still! I appear to have to handle a little bit of impending chaos in the near future and intend to handle it like a pro chaos-handler.

I also can't wait to get a laptop of my own. I'm appreciative to Jamie for what she's done in letting me borrow this machine, but I'll be grateful to have my own machine so I can enjoy terribly mediocre video games, waste my time on chatting programs and store vast amounts of pornography. Apparently. If all goes well.

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