I need to get into something to get me wanting to go outside. It's a nice enough day, besides the four plus inches of snow we've got outside (I like snow when I have shoes that won't absorb the snow) but what am I going to do with it? From where I live, not too much. Take a shower. Look for bits and pieces. Make a relatively nice meal. Wait for another day of work. So, I'm looking into a good digital camera of my own and a good memory card for the future. I have got my own credit card now, which I'm going to throw this on when I choose something. With that, there's no more treats for me in the near future. This is my obligation to fix now. Still, six months of interest free time can't hurt. And it'll compare to the price of the cremation, when that gets organised. Then I have a reason to go outside - ah, the joys of photography.
Once winter passes something needs to happen here. I am excited for that change. But for now, it's just taking life step by step. I'm not ready for one of those wild charges into the unknown just yet.